What would you do if money were no object?

Alan Watts is an interesting man. I’ve been listening to his lectures on YouTube all day, and I just find him fascinating.

This particular video really resonated with me. It’s only about 5 minutes, so give it a watch. It’s called “If money were no object, what would you do?”

Watts, in many of his lectures, speaks to needing the discipline to acquire skill to be happy, not money. After watching, or listening rather, to this lecture, I’ve begun to think how often I put off writing or editing photos because “more important” things take precedence (like homework and the newspaper). But what I want most out of life is to write.

Sure, I mean be a journalist because I enjoy it, but I want to write books. I want to write poetry. I want to write short story collections. But my stipulation for that is that I want people to care, and that’s scary to think about. It’s completely out of my control. Whether or not people chose to give a damn about me or my stories is 100% their prerogative. I can only rely on what I know how to do, the skills that I am mastering and the ideas in my head.

But maybe the stars will align for me as they have for my heroes.



I don’t know and neither do you

When people talk about the future, it stresses me out.

I’m not talking about people asking me what I’m eating for lunch. I mean when boyfriends talk about having kids. Or people asking me 500 questions about my study abroad plans next semester when I don’t have the answers. Or someone asking me where I think I’ll be in 5 years. I know where I want to be, but right now, I don’t have the time or patience to think about anything other than exactly what I want for my future. If I don’t focus on that, then I won’t ever get there.

Do me a favor. Leave me alone. When I get where I want to be, then you can ask me how I did it. Right now, don’t ask me how I’m going to do it because I don’t know. I just know I’m going to.