On Life, On Writing, Thoughts

How to write yourself down from a panic attack in six paragraphs

The feeling of my chest folding in on itself is familiar in a haunting way. It clenches the way that muscles flinch when something comes to close to your face—except it stays that way. There’s no immediate relief after you don’t get hit. There’s no sigh to release the tension.

The creature sneaks its way down the center of my body, spreading through my stomach. The roots seem to grab hold of whatever organ they can, squeezing as if I’m trying to rip it from my body. But the only violent one here is it. If you tug, it clings harder. Like Devil’s Snare, the more you fight, the worse it gets. Continue reading “How to write yourself down from a panic attack in six paragraphs”

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On Writing

Why I’m halting my NaNoWriMo novel already

It’s November 3, and I’m already stopping my NaNoWriMo expedition for this year. Not to worry, fellow writers, I’m not abandoning my project—just reevaluating.

This year, I tried to be something I’m not: a pantster. For those of you who don’t know, a “pantster” is someone who writes their novel without planning before hand. They fly by the seat of their pants, if you will.

Continue reading “Why I’m halting my NaNoWriMo novel already”

Poetry

A Pause in Thought

I’ve hit a bump in the road
A brick in the wall
A fork in the path,
If you will.
I’ve sacrificed my creative tongue
For an early nights sleep
Maybe I’m finally just too happy.
My words are accustomed to
A cynical tone, sometimes defensive,
Often in pain.
But I’m happy now,
And I can’t seem to channel
The way I used to feel into
Words worth reading
And now I’m stuck.
I will not pen poems of roses and rainbows—
No. that is not who I am. That is not my poetry.
My voice pulls out the harsh reality.
But somewhere between falling in love and moving to a beautiful place,
I have lost my sight, my vision so clear of the pain and suffering so many endure—what I used to feel daily.
So I write.
I write now in hopes of bringing a voice back.
In hopes of channeling my inner monologue to say something profound…
Or worth reading at the very least.

-HRG

Poetry, Thoughts

NaPoWriMo

So I just found out about NaPoWriMo, and I’m wondering how I came this far in life without knowing it.

I know I’m five days late, but I think I’m going to participate. I’ll try to step up my game and double up on five days so I end up with 30 poems at the end of the month.

So follow for some intense poetry this month!

HRG

Thoughts

New Year New Novel

I’ve been working on The Beginning for awhile, and I’ve decided I’m not quite ready for it yet. I’m not at the right place in my life to write the caliber of story that The Beginning deserves. So, I will put it aside for awhile and eventually come back.

Tonight, I’m going to continue work on a new novel that I’m calling “Ordinary” for the time being. It’s not a love story. I don’t write those. It is, however, a story about love.

Stay tuned for details and teasers, darlings.

-HRG

Thoughts

An evening of writing

I’ve made a mug of coffee and brought my computer to the lounge, where I’m using dry-erase markers on a board to set up character outlines. It’s snowing outside, but I have fuzzy socks on. I’ll probably order a gluten-free pizza later, with barbecue sauce not tomato sauce, and of course chicken, double cheese, onions and pineapple.

I’m falling in love with the first line of my novel, and my characters are showing me how awesome they really are.

Such is the life of a writer.

-HRG

On Writing

Twitter accounts to keep you going for NaNoWriMo

If you’re participating in NaNoWriMo, you’ve probably succumbed to the “I can push this off” or “I think that’s good for today.” I know I have. I’m actually so embarrassed about my word count I won’t even share it here. (EEEKK…it’s really that bad!)

Don’t fear! There’s always a way to get back on track.

Two Twitter accounts that really help to keep you on tack are @NaNoWriMo and @NaNoWriMoSprints.

NaNoWriMo Sprints tweets out short challenges to keep you writing and to keep writer’s block from setting in.

Here’s a few of their tweets from today:

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@NaNoWriMo is usually tweeting out encouraging words and updates on their fundraising goals and merchandise.

Both good follows if you’re a NaNoWriMo writer!

-HRG

Thoughts

NaNooooooWriMo

So I’ve done just a phenomenal job at NaNoWriMo so far, and by that  I mean I haven’t started yet. OH JOY. I have my ideas down, I just haven’t sat down to write yet, which is weird for me because I procrastinate by writing. So now I’m actually doing work and stressing out because I haven’t started my novel yet! AHHH!

Anyone else having this problem? Other NaNoWriMo problems? Let’s chat, novelists!

-HRG

Thoughts

What would you do if money were no object?

Alan Watts is an interesting man. I’ve been listening to his lectures on YouTube all day, and I just find him fascinating.

This particular video really resonated with me. It’s only about 5 minutes, so give it a watch. It’s called “If money were no object, what would you do?”

Watts, in many of his lectures, speaks to needing the discipline to acquire skill to be happy, not money. After watching, or listening rather, to this lecture, I’ve begun to think how often I put off writing or editing photos because “more important” things take precedence (like homework and the newspaper). But what I want most out of life is to write.

Sure, I mean be a journalist because I enjoy it, but I want to write books. I want to write poetry. I want to write short story collections. But my stipulation for that is that I want people to care, and that’s scary to think about. It’s completely out of my control. Whether or not people chose to give a damn about me or my stories is 100% their prerogative. I can only rely on what I know how to do, the skills that I am mastering and the ideas in my head.

But maybe the stars will align for me as they have for my heroes.

-HRG

Thoughts

NaNoWriMo 2014?

In the world of being a writer, there are many opportunities to join communities with other writers. Perhaps the biggest is NaNoWriMo.

If you’re unfamiliar with NaNoWriMo, you can click here to go to the website and learn more. Basically, NaNoWriMo stands for National Novel Writing Month, and writers from all over the country commit to the goal of writing a novel of 50,000 words during the month of November. There are a few rules and stipulations, such as not writing anything before November 1st, but I’ll let you explore those on the website.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about NaNoWriMo and if I should participate this year. I really want to, and I have an idea, I’ve just never completed one, and I always feel like a failure.

Now that I’ve said that, though, I’m starting to think that I can’t ever let that stop me and I’ll probably write anyway.

Are you participating? Excited about your idea and want to share it? Are you a NaNoWriMo veteran or newbie? Comment and let’s discuss!

-HRG